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a place where i rant it all out.
Like its, My tots! .

A lil me.
In time it would be better

I am me.
forever 21.
a mom of 2.
Love ma kids to pieces.
I am one lucky bitch, who have some true friends.
I hate feedofyles.
I hate liars.
i love food.

i have to many
Lovelies in ma Life
I noe i am being
Loved
By aLL of dem

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My life change again on dis very date.
Went to doc and she said dat de cervix is now 4cm.
I was oredy in labour but i dint noe.
i was immidiately send to de labour ward.
Exactly at 7pm, doc came in to break my double membrane.
As though breaking one isnt pain enough..
and it was 2! isk... sUper dah deh!

The Arrival..
At 2152, he came. I gave berth to him
100% naturally and my God... It was painful.
Undenialble..(got such werd?)
I did get abit help ah.. de gas.
Other den dat... it was all me!
It was abit farnie doh.
When it was elsa's turn.. i had to induce.
It means i had to force her out lah.
Si boy plak... he oredy wanna come out.. but
de bLardy mangkok nurse didnt let me push him out.
She actually told me to tahan him..!! My doc was on de way
from home. so i dint noe de pain was from all de refraining
or from de pushing..

It was almost midnyte when i got back to ma ward.
My dad wasnt in Sg.. he left fer KL on dat friday morning.
He had to attend to some Prison stuffs..
My mom, sis, elsa and my gerlfren Jacque came to de hopital dat very nyte.
jacque...She did help me alot. My gerl really like her ard..
so she stayed over at ma mom's place to accompany de gerls.
Hubby stayed over with me. My inlaws were oredy at me ward too.

Sunday morning i head back home..
b4 i even left fer home.. i had oredy dread it.
Hubby gotta leave fer Maldives dat very evening.
I was still in so much pain. My 'bottom' was still sore from de tear.
I havent got any sleep since friday and ma lil gerl has oredy started
her 'I AM DE BABY' behaviour. When he left de house.. i had to
put up a smile fer him. i dint want him to werry.. my deep down insyde..
only God noes i am wailing.

I had to be strong fer him and ma children. It wasnt smooth sailing...
My dad came back from KL with a fever. so Gerl and boy had to sleep with me.
Boy sleeps thruout de day but at night.. wow... so alive!
Gerl plak..during de day... so bLardy alive..running and jumping.
go to sleep only at abt midnyte.
so... when gerl sleeps, boy wakes up. so i dont rest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
eeeee..peNat tauuuuu!!! Mom plak culdnt cook fer de family koz she got rashes.
so she had to stay out of de kitchen. Adeq school..jacque werk.
Terpaksa lah i du on ma own most of de things. At de 2nd day at home..
gerl forced me to carry her. she is over 12kg.. can u imagine de pain
at me bottom??? de preasure... isk... sampai skarang my bottom still pain.

There are tymes.. where i almost cried. i culdnt take it especially with ma gerl's demands..cries and behaviour. i dont believe in beating.but my hands felt so light to just spank elsa. i was on de verge of giving up. everytyme hubby called.. i wanted to cry so much and ask him to come home. but it was an important match.
i just held back ma tears. I really admire dos ladies hu dont have husband due to any reasons.. and can go thru dis period without breaking down. Kudos ladies.

But i am just glad dat he wuld come back tommorow.